Aug 5, 2014

Orlando Lately - Through My Lens (Vol. 5)

On the sixth floor of the Embassy Suites in Downtown Orlando. It was David's birthday weekend. We were alone. So much laughter and loud silence. The kind that after being married for some years you begin to appreciate. It was just us, this beautiful view, and another day and night in our love.

On the fifth floor of the Embassy Suites - the day before we switched rooms. A balcony was what we needed but this view was the best we had. This was the picture I took and sent to him saying, "This is our view. Can't wait to enjoy it with you. Hurry up and get here. Like now". He was at work, wrapping up a few deals. Hey, the deals are what pays the bills so I wasn't complaining,...just anticipating.

Very special day. I was with the Fab Four, my four younger children. Got them dressed for an impromptu photo-shoot. They're growing. I want to hold on to every stage of their beauty, growth, and life. Through my lens I see differently. I see things I don't see with my eyes alone. And then this shot. I turned my camera and there it was - the perfection of stillness of the in between. And then, #VSCOCAM happened. Yes. Perfection. 

Mmmm, can you feel it? This shot says everything that needs not be said. So touchy, feely, calm, and free. 
Here is where I sat with the stillness that is of me - that is inside of me. And I didn't want to leave. That is all.

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Aug 1, 2014

Life Lessons: Learning The Rhythms of Life

Those moments when things are supposed to be the way it is but never is. Those moments where things seem like they are but never are.
Those moments where certainty is promised but promises uncertainty.
Those moments when you know but then again have no freaking idea.

Yea, those moments. 

Life's moments that are bliss - filled that turns in to a bliss-less-ness.

Lately life has been like this for me. Can you relate? Does it seem like in one moment you know what direction you're supposed to be heading and then the next not so sure?

Does it seem to have you on a high and then, before you know it, that high becomes a low? And sometimes really, really, low.

Life is like this.
Ups and downs are the one thing that is constant and sure.

In moments like these here's what I do...

take a deep breath, inhale it all in, and breathe it all out. 
I let it go.

There is no need for me to fuss over it because as I've learned, that doesn't change it. 

Life has a rhythm, a flow, an ebb, and if we adhere to it all will be well. Even if it doesn't look like it, it will. 

I have a saying that also helps me get through these moments. My husband and oldest children now use it.

It's simple. Nothing profound. Just something that gives me hope when I can't seem to see my way through.

It goes like this...

"Confusion always comes before clarity". 
That's it.

Whenever I've lost my way, am uncertain of which direction to go next, I stop, take a deep breath, and remember those words.
It's helped me, maybe it will help you too.

Confusion serves it's purpose on your way to clarity. Clarity will come. You can be certain of that. 

So, chin up. Don't let it discourage you for too long. This too shall pass. 

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Jul 19, 2014

Currently Where The Light Is - Creation

Reading... Sex At Dawn. Taking my time, making my way through this one. Sex & Pearls, how appropriate? They do go hand and hand, wouldn't you say? The pearls made it easy to digest, I guess. Sex At Dawn - have you read it?
"How we mate, why we stray, and what it means for modern relationships. 

Here's some of the things you'll read about on the inside: 
Why long-term fidelity can be so difficult for so many. 
Why sexual passion tends to fade even as love deepens. 
Why many middle-aged men risk everything for an affair. 
Why homosexuality persists in the face of standard evolutionary logic. 
What the human body reveals about the prehistoric origins of modern sexuality."  
I'm looking forward to it.
If you've read it please share your feelings on this work and what, if anything, did you learn from it.   


Feeling... happiness. In this moment I'm grateful for the happiness that I'm experiencing because I am doing something I love - writing & enjoying my pleasures. Slowly allowing the words to pour out of my soul, observing my creation. Delighting in the new things to come with my blog and online presence. My heart feels joyful and I'm grateful. 

What brings you happiness? 


Smelling... sage. I bought this batch back in Atlanta. I Love the smell of Sage. I burn it throughout my house, my alters, and around me. It's a cleansing method that's been used for ages. My aunt would burn it in her apartment and not only did the smell arouse me but the ritual itself resonated with me.

Here are a few ways I use it in our home:
Whenever I'm feeling a bit frazzled, over-worked, anxious about anything I burn it and sit in front of my alter and pray or meditate or draw my tarot cards. It's method is healing and soothing to my soul. 
Whenever we move in to a new space I'll burn it and walk around the home into every room performing a blessing ritual. Basically giving thanks and blessing our new space. 

Do you use Sage for spiritual house cleansing or any cleansing for that matter?


Tasting... these sweet cranberries and delicious almonds and yummy ginger dressing. Honoring my body and what it wants. Making sure to stay aligned with what is best for my body. I do this by listening to what my body is hungry for in each moment. I do this by having healthy snacks around me so I won't reach for those unhealthy snacks or snacks that don't serve me. I do this by not allowing myself to become too hungry in between meals leaving me with hunger pains that causes me to eat whatever. Which is usually NOT what's best for me.

Also... the beginnings of some vegan Homemade Coconut Waffles that had my children and husband smacking their syrupy smothered lips. Blog post for this recipe coming soon. The pictures will make  your mouth water. 

So, when are you coming over for your homemade waffles? I always make enough to share.


Listening... to Women Who Run With The Wolves by Clarissa Pinkola Estes. 
"The idea of freedom. The idea of being unspoiled and having rhythms that are uninterrupted by the overdose of the intellect."

Another book that I learned about some years ago and took the time to read during my hiatus from the internet in 2012. I listen to be reminded of what's important - the soul. I listen and read to remember what is dear to me - my wild woman. I listen and read and slowly, sometimes rapidly, are being transformed. 
My life needed this book, Clarrisa's wisdom, stories, and teachings. Everything all of a sudden made sense. I was not the "different" one in my family that I was always told I was. My ways were not strange and abnormal like I was taught to believe. There was nothing ever, ever, ever wrong with me. 
As a child I would listen to the birds sing and learn their songs. I would listen to the breeze blow through the tree leaves and hear it's message. I felt the bees hum within me whenever they were around. I heard my name whispered all the time and when I turned around no one was there. I saw shadows of people in the corners of my eyes that as I got older embraced them as friends. These things I experienced made me special. They are a part of who I am and I no longer push them away because of shame.

Does this sound like you? 
Did you grow up feeling strangely different from those you called family, or couldn't explain why you always felt out of place? Don't be ashamed. You are not alone. You have a place, it just may have not been there. 


Creating... his musical beats and rhythms. Tapping into his creative flow, enjoying his pleasures. He loves making music and DJ-ing. His hours at work only allow this to happen during small windows of his free time. I can only imagine what he could do with even more time. Those days will be here soon enough. For now, he enjoys these little moments he has and I enjoy watching him flow.

What do you enjoy doing / creating but don't have the time that you would like to do it? 



Wondering... what is she thinking, feeling, sensing, seeing. So intriguing, always leaves me wondering of her wonder. Who is she? Why did she choose me in my dream the day before David brought her home. In my dream she brought a spirit of play as she does to our lives everyday. She is a mystery unfolding, waiting to be re-discovered once again.

Do you have an animal(s)? Have you ever felt the kind of connection I'm speaking about? 


Pondering... these delicious curves, naked skin, soft places, resting places, white linens, magic happening. Slowly drifting like these butterflies flying high. Body deliciously heavy with memories, feeling the comfort of home, on this bed, in this space. A touch of light frolicking, dancing where I once laid my head. Can you see it? Loose locs, waiting to be released from their nightly wrap, desiring and deserving freedom. 
My mind slips in and out of worlds. The one inside my camera and the other on the other side. Holding it steady, hearing my breath as I inhale and exhale just before I snap. 

Currently where the light is. 

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Jul 12, 2014

Blogger {Love} on Pinterest

Are you a blog reader, like me? Do you find yourself getting lost in the world of a blogger and not minding it at all? Do you feel like you know them and in some way have become a part of their lives?
I do. All the time. Today I share some of my favorites with you.

I've been blogging for the past eight years. Since then I've met some amazing women and men. I love what I do. I love blogging, sharing my life, my perspective on things, and the things I love. I love to read other's blogs who do the same. I learn so much from them and about them that I feel like I know them. I feel like we are good friends. Do you know what I mean?

When I follow a blogger's life through their blog and stories I become a part of their lives. Sometimes they know it and sometimes not. But the joy that I get doesn't come from them having to know. Many of these men and women I've never met in person but I feel like we have, and I hope to meet them some day. 

Just a few months ago I decided to create a Pinterest board in honor these wonderful bloggers. I wanted a place to share their work, their stories, and who they are. I wanted a place to show my appreciation by sharing them with you. I wanted a place that I could go to for some quick inspiration, heartfelt stories, laughs and cries. My hope is that you'll feel the same way too. As you read their stories and blogs I hope you find as much joy in them as I do. I hope you'll connect with them as well. Let me know if you do. Let me know if at least one of them resonates with you. Maybe you're already following one, two, or few. Either way let me know.

The board is called, Blogger {Love}Supporting my fellow bloggers, writers, poets. Post's and articles written that move me, fill me up, open me up, liberate me. I hope you enjoy them too. 

I hope that you'll take some time to read their blogs and see why I appreciate them so much. 

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Jul 8, 2014

Our Jamaica 2014 Part 2

It's been a few weeks since we've been back from our trip to Jamaica. I can still hear the ocean and smell the sand. I can still feel the vibes of our entire weekend. And certainly haven't forgotten about all that delicious food we had! 

Below are some pictures from Friday nights beach barbecue. It was a beautiful evening, thanks to Half Moon Resort chefs and entertainment. 
The food was so good I wish I could have taken some home to eat the next day. There was so much to choose from and enjoy.  

The weather was perfect. The music was just right. The people, the great conversations over dinner and after, the fact that we were getting ready to celebrate the union of our close friends, made the evening extra special. I was in heaven and so was David. It was an experience we will never forget and we wouldn't want to. 

After dinner everyone gathered around to watch a hermit crab race. 

David, his smile, and the full moon peeking through - beautiful.

What a perfect night. We celebrated in Jamaica under the full moon on Friday the 13th. She was a beautiful site to see. 

We ended the night partying and having so much fun at Pier 1 nightclub in Montego Bay.

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